What is Fat, Really?

Dear Readers

For me it started in puberty when I really felt hunger for the first time. My best friend embarrassed me when I ate too many muffins at the breakfast table after a sleepover. Then, my Mom gently made me acknowledge I had been gaining weight. I looked in the mirror and for the first time I saw that my butt was Huge! Now this was in the 70s when white girls were supposed to sport a boyish figure. At 14 I began dieting for the first time. By the time I was 15 I was purging. No one knew. They were just proud if me that I stuck to my diet and lost weight. Fast forward 40 years yep and I eat well but I still struggle with body image. Every single day. 
Love,
Diana